There is nothing more difficult than to ask.

June 8th

If you do not cut the moorings, God will have to break them by a storm and send you out.

It's amazing what lengths to which God will go in order to get my love, attention, and dependency. I'm content where I am, but if I don't get moving, He will move me. I can hop on a ship and head in the other direction, but He'll send a storm and a whale and I'll end up at Nineveh, anyway. I'm just making the process much more difficult than it had to be.

When you know you should do a thing, and do it, immediately you know more.

That's cool. When I don't do what I know I should do, it's usually because of my lack of understanding. I don't know why He wants me to do it, so it's easier to rationalize myself out of it. But those times where I walk by faith and do His will, it all makes sense afterwards. I do this time and time again, yet I continue to struggle to follow Him through faith. Romans 7. Bleh. I guess the moral is to live and learn and walk by faith.



June 9th

We will never receive if we ask with an end in view; if we ask, not out of our poverty but out of our lust.

When I ask something of God, most of the time I like to think that it's because it's what I need. But when I'm asking something out of my poverty and desperation, I know that that is why I'm asking. Honestly, those moments usually come once every few months, give or take. That's about how often I let myself be humbled, broken. A few days ago I had one of these moments. It feels like a weak moment at the time, but looking back, I was growing stronger.

I'm just beggin You for Your wisdom,
And I believe You're puttin' some here...